Why?

I read that we may soon be able to stimulate our brains with electric shocks that will enlarge our capacity to learn and retain, that it may help with some of the awful problems that now come with age. I cant wait, so I have to make my own electric shocks, like the one that I have every dayactually almost every minutewhen I think about my lover. At ninety-two, I fell in love with a fifty-three-year-old poet, who fell into love with me too. We have an intense mental and emotional love that enlarges our senses and our lives. Weve very different people that have melded into one person, bonding in so many ways. We encourage and sustain each other even when we seldom meet in real time or place. I cannot understand how I came into so many joys so late in my life, so I continue to ask, Why?